I’ve been inspired by recent meetings around the screen addiction rehab program. The essence is to help young brothers and sisters return to their first love for the Lord. But I was also reminded to restore my own first love.
When I reflected, I realized that my first love had been slipping away from me. During the pandemic I had kept myself very involved in ministry as well as in meetings. I had also been careful to maintain spiritual discipline for the most part. And in the past, I felt that that should be enough to satisfy the Lord. But when I looked deeper at myself, I realized that I was sometimes doing these things out of a sense of responsibility. I would forget to focus on the person who I was doing this for – the Lord Himself. And as a result I wasn’t as joyful as I would have liked.
Now I’d like to return to my first love. How will I do it? I don’t have all the answers yet, but I do want to adjust a few things. One is having the right mindset before I join different meetings or cell groups. It’s the same mindset I want to have before I draw near to Him, too. That mindset is – I am here for You because I love You, and I want to experience You. I want this attitude to be from my heart.