Faith in Moving Forward – Penny Chan (Promised Land)

I’ve always found myself adapting to new environments well. However, since moving to a new country last year, I’ve found myself burdened by thoughts about the past more. Unconsciously, I compare myself to my past self and can’t help thinking about what I could’ve done better, what I haven’t done enough, etc. It’s like my mind refuses to move on to a new journey.

I asked the Lord how He felt when He had to leave one place for another. He had to leave the people He treasured in each town and village and move on to the next journey. The Samaritan woman, Lazarus, Zacchaeus…and many more. It was not that He did not love them, but He knew His goal was to walk towards the cross, and He would execute the plan without being delayed by anything. He had the greatest faith that Abba would take care of everyone He loved. Talking to the Lord makes me feel His understanding. I see Him as a good example, and I practice forward thinking. When I catch myself dwelling on a thought, I remind myself to turn to the Lord and move on to what I need to do. I find that when I exercise my faith to see that the Lord has taken care of everything and that all things have been used by Him, my heart feels lighter. I can save some time by not analyzing things with my own judgement. The same goes for drawing near to God and in meetings; I remind myself not to dwell on one thought but to follow the guidance of the Holy Spirit. It is still an ongoing process, but I know the Lord will reward my faith!

I feel now I can understand Philippians 3:13-14 even more: “Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”